As many of you know, I have been working as the Health Assistant at La Jolla Elementary School (LJES, as they like to be called) for the past 2 months. I really am enjoying myself at this job, compared to more recent bombs-for-jobs. The hitch is...I don't really want to be working at all! It is, and has been, very hard for me to adjust to leaving my children and making bubcus at some random job. Bubcus, by the way = hardly enough money to make it worth it. I have very high emotional downs about this occasionally.
Recently a friend of mine was telling me that she was thinking that she needed to go and get a job. Actually, two of my good friends have told me this. They would have to leave their beautiful children behind to try and find something that might help their current financial predicament.
If I could give any advice, this is it. Don't do it. I can tell you, from my experience at least, that it is not worth it. Leaving your children to work full-time/part-time is a lot harder than you think it will be. It has been so hard for me! Even now, with this fun and, let's face it- easy, job that I have...all I think about is how much I'd rather be with my children; teaching them, playing with them, feeding them good food, etc. I feel my calling as a mother. Not that others don't. But in my own personal situation, I feel it. I know that that is what I really need to be doing. For my children, for me and for my family.
So, why am I still working? At this point, I am constantly asking myself that. I'm not happy in my current situation. The only positive thing that comes out of this is that I'm not at home all day stressing anxiously about what bills won't be paid that month.
What I want my awesome blog friends to know is that I'm fine. I'm not trying to get your sympathy. I'm really just verbally (through written words) expressing feelings, hoping a light will come on somewhere.